One decision is all that matters!!

Today, its the GKidz picnic.

In the morning, I was not feeling very good and happy. I was actually so tired and all. And body is like aching!! But after listening to my picnic head, and his views regarding some issues, i felt better. But there is still that feeling of... I WAN TO SLACK... I WAN TO JUST GO THROUGH MOTION!!! So I went to the park as planned as the advance party. Upon reaching there, D___ and I started to set up the place and start allocating the place. After a while, everything is done and we are slacking and stoning. At this point in time, I am just stoning and wanting to get through it...

Soon, the first bus arrive. OUT OF MY DUTY... I went to direct them to D___ so that she can tell them where to settle down at.. But as the kids start coming, i see the laughter on their faces. I see the "looking forward to a great day" faces.. I felt God telling me, are you going to start shouting at them because they are so messy, and take all your anger out on them?

I thought for a while and I realised I am so selfish!! My problems are MY problems.. why am I taking my emotions out on other ppl?

So, in that short few minutes, I told myself.... Guowei.. if you are going to be so selfish and you want to ruin the whole event, go ahead and give that face!! but if you don wan to... then you should love them.. play with them and SMILE!!! greet everyone with a smile!!! And... ya... my decision is to smile.....

So, i was looking forward to my kids, and i saw them!!! I felt happier now that i have choosen to smile.. I felt lighter and felt God telling me that.. Good one la... Heng you choose the right thing to do.... other than that, when i saw the rest of the kids, as they walk towards me and as i redirect them to the picnic ground, i feel better and better.. Soon, I saw XX and seeing the smile make me smile too!!

Soon, the kids all arrived and I manage to join the kids and play... I was playing volleyball when this P4 guy came up to me and look at me... then he asked if he can play... (he is not from my group) and i smiled and said okay!! while playing, this P4 guy cut himself... maybe out of duty, i decide to bring him to clean up his cut.. it is just a small cut, so i asked him if he wanted to clean it up... he said no.. but i asked again.. and he said yes...

the next thing surprised me!!! this P4 guy held on to my hand!!! I was too surprised to think about it and so i just started walking... even as i reach my bag, i am still so surprised that someone, a young kid, will put so much trust in me... I don even know him and i nv seen him before!! as i was cleaning his cut for him... I really felt that he trusted me and he is thinking that i know wad i am doing when actually, i don.... but because of him.. i realised how much God trust me... this are young lives!! so many of them.. and God chose me to serve here.. God gave me this opportunity to demonstrate his trust for me... OMG... i really felt way better.. From the going thru motion to seeing the trust of God...

i think the main take away today for me is that most of the time... things happen just a decision away... just like this morning.. that simple decision to smile... it changes the whole spiritual climate that i am facing..

so... thank God for today!! THANK YOU lord for making it such a great day and letting me see you working through the live of a little one...