Global Day Of Prayer!!

I was reminded today that someone said that the bridge of the song Hosanna was really hard to sing. But i all along thought i could sing it. All along i thought God can see my heart. But today, i really heard Him saying.... Are you sure that your heart is a heart of service? that you really want to feel how i feel and want to do wad i do?

I think it came as a... shock? a i-know-but-pretend-i-don-know type of feeling... i think i haven really thought of serving Him till this year when i entered Gkidz. And through Gkidz, i think i really learn how to serve, and God is like trying to teach me wad is real servanthood... picking up the rubbish that the kids left behind after they leave, picking up the crap... not something that i will do ba... and of cos, the lessons that i learnt thru the whole of Gkidz experience... ppl i get to know... but... i just realise!! servanthood. is not doing things that are NICE!! it is a lot of doing sai kang!! doing things that is not wad i like to do.. i am a guy who is okay lo.. anything la.. up to you lo... so now i have to be firm... NO PLAYING GAMES... ALL SEAT DOWN.... NO TALKING!! ... this are harsh words!! i don even say them in camp!! and now?... i think its a weekly line that i say!.... other things that i don usually do, going overseas with church... i like to do community work... slack.. relax... but now with a church?... i don know how is ti like.... there is alot of do's and don's.... but well... i think God somehow convict my heart to go!! so i wll go.. its a lesson ba.. i think..

But, back to today's GDOP, i today really felt its hard to sing the bridge...

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity

And so God, i pray that even thru this whole GDOP and the QQS, God i really pray that you will help me to learn bout you.. God, i may not be the super good and up guy. but God grant me the heart to serve you better! God i want you to use my hands and my feet... God help me to see thru your eyes and tell me next time how to deal with the kids at Gkids... God give me your solution and not let me think on my own anymore... cos God, i think your solutions are so much better thann mine...and God, help me to feel comfortable in being uncomfortable.. God let me have a clear mind what i wan. let me put down all the past hurts and burdens.. be it at home, with N__, or at work, or even in church.... Lord help me to put it all down. and let me be healed of it all... so that i can move on... God bless my future GF, that she will be the one just for me... and God, you know wad type i like... so help me please... and God, i commit the following week to your hands!! In jesus name i pray! amen!