Global Day Of Prayer!!

I was reminded today that someone said that the bridge of the song Hosanna was really hard to sing. But i all along thought i could sing it. All along i thought God can see my heart. But today, i really heard Him saying.... Are you sure that your heart is a heart of service? that you really want to feel how i feel and want to do wad i do?

I think it came as a... shock? a i-know-but-pretend-i-don-know type of feeling... i think i haven really thought of serving Him till this year when i entered Gkidz. And through Gkidz, i think i really learn how to serve, and God is like trying to teach me wad is real servanthood... picking up the rubbish that the kids left behind after they leave, picking up the crap... not something that i will do ba... and of cos, the lessons that i learnt thru the whole of Gkidz experience... ppl i get to know... but... i just realise!! servanthood. is not doing things that are NICE!! it is a lot of doing sai kang!! doing things that is not wad i like to do.. i am a guy who is okay lo.. anything la.. up to you lo... so now i have to be firm... NO PLAYING GAMES... ALL SEAT DOWN.... NO TALKING!! ... this are harsh words!! i don even say them in camp!! and now?... i think its a weekly line that i say!.... other things that i don usually do, going overseas with church... i like to do community work... slack.. relax... but now with a church?... i don know how is ti like.... there is alot of do's and don's.... but well... i think God somehow convict my heart to go!! so i wll go.. its a lesson ba.. i think..

But, back to today's GDOP, i today really felt its hard to sing the bridge...

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity

And so God, i pray that even thru this whole GDOP and the QQS, God i really pray that you will help me to learn bout you.. God, i may not be the super good and up guy. but God grant me the heart to serve you better! God i want you to use my hands and my feet... God help me to see thru your eyes and tell me next time how to deal with the kids at Gkids... God give me your solution and not let me think on my own anymore... cos God, i think your solutions are so much better thann mine...and God, help me to feel comfortable in being uncomfortable.. God let me have a clear mind what i wan. let me put down all the past hurts and burdens.. be it at home, with N__, or at work, or even in church.... Lord help me to put it all down. and let me be healed of it all... so that i can move on... God bless my future GF, that she will be the one just for me... and God, you know wad type i like... so help me please... and God, i commit the following week to your hands!! In jesus name i pray! amen!

I Want To Sing, 1984

Some songs lasts forever.

Last night, I was having a headache... something that i have been having quite frequently this few days. Maybe you can say its stress? Or some may call it inability to to handle and perform. On the whole, it just means that Guowei! YOU FAILED!! Its a pretty loud comment. Hey, your designs cannot make it, change here, change here,change here AND here!! 

I think this is probably how I spent this week, going through a lot of different blogs, looking for inspiration. And changing and adding as much things I thought is good for the company blog. But I realize that no matter what I add or change, it can never be compared to the senior web developer coming in. In just one day, he manage to change all the things that I have done in this one week. He has added all the images and changed all the colors and stuff. Mhm. Looking at it, i think I am really not cut out to do designing. Heng I am going to some engine stuff where numbers is all that matters. But well, ya, the thought that I failed still came across my mind quite a few times and it never fail to hit me when I am feeling sad and sian bout all that is happening in my life. Then, i feel so much worst. And there are times when i need to see faces, at work, at home, everywhere. And I know that i cannot be selfish, they are innocent and I should not be showing them faces that I got from work. But things are always like that?? Life is just full of all this ba. 

And i was just reminded of the song 'From The Inside Out'....

A thousand times I've failed 

Still your mercy remains 

And should I stumble again 

Still I'm caught in your grace  

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades 

Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame 

my heart and my soul, Lord

 I give you control 

Consume me from the inside out Lord 

Let justice and praise 

become my embrace 

To love You from the inside out  

Your will above all else, 

my purpose remains 

The art of losing myself 

in bringing you praise  

Everlasting, 

Your light will shine when all else fades 

Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame 

In my heart, in my soul, Lord 

I give you control

 Consume me from the inside out Lord 

Let justice and praise become my embrace 

To love You from the inside out  

Chorus 2x 

Everlasting,

 Your light will shine when all else fades 

Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame 

And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise 

From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out

Indeed, a thousand times i failed. So God, after i failed so many times, God I pray that you hold me up in your hands. God don let me fall so badly that i cannot take it. And God, make me successful! God let me have a good family! and God bless my home! Let your peace reign!! and God, bless this time of working too! God, I also pray that you open up my eyes and see. Let me be more decisive and know what i want. God i leave all my baggages down at your cross. God come and take it away! and i commit my relationship with my frenz to you. God bless those i love and make them what you dreamed them to be. God bless my future girlfriend that she is the one for me and i be the one for her! And God, bless the company that i am working at that the finances will come in! God let there be more business opportunity! and more income! so, God thank you! In Jesus name i pray! Amen!

Lost Generation

Did you every talk to God above?

Okay, i am back again... Last nite was taking bus home at nite... then someone who mean quite a bit to me smsed me... That person encouraged me to surrender to God all that i am holding onto... so... while listening to music, i started telling God to take it all.. To really let me be able to see... see what i really want, be it at home, in church, at Gkids, in uni, and all.... and i was reminded of this song which i used to like a lot alot.... Felt better after telling Him so much... But i think there is still somemore that i want to pour out to Him... Really don wan to enter Uni with any baggages of burdens... And i felt that God wants me to take a break from all the things i am doing... maybe once or twice a month, just go to the beach spend time with Him... and really TALK to Him... And tell him my heart....

For those who know this song, this song means a lot to me... 

Did you ever talk to God above?
Tell Him that you need a friend to love.
Pray in Jesus’ name believing
that God answers prayer.

Have you told Him all your cares and woes?
Ev’ry tiny little fear He knows.
You can know He’ll always hear
And He will answer prayer.

You can whisper in a crowd to Him.
You can cry when you’re alone to Him.
You don’t have to pray out loud to Him;
He knows your thoughts.

On a lofty mountain peak, He’s there.
In a meadow by a stream, He’s there.
Anywhere on earth you go,
He’s been there from the start.

Find the answer in His Word; it’s true.
You’ll be strong because He walks with you.
By His faithfulness He’ll change you, too.
God answers prayer.

Who Am I

To all those out there looking at this blog by chance, today, now, i am at work. Suddenly thought of this sound telling me Who I am in God. Just felt that i should post this as somehow, i think God is using it to speak to someone.... If you are that someone, Do post a comment to let us know!

Who am I? 
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I? 
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours. 

Who am I? 
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I? 
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours. 

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am yours..
I am yours..

Indeed, not because of who i am, but because of what He has done, and not because of what i have done, but because of who He really is!

God blessed us with so much, even gave His one and only son!! and Jesus take it all to the cross, he is blameless and yet, decide to take it all for us, i want to commit myself once again to God as well!

Running, runnin!!

Today.. i think i abit sort..... I went to run alone at bout 10 pm!!! This is like the first time i did something like this la.... Thenwhile i was running, I was just thinking bout some issues la that i want to start dealing with.... then suddenly... the roads seems all quiet and i am all alone... i was like... WA LAO GOD... you don need to test my faith now... i was opposite the prata shop at NUS and i running down clementi road... there at nite quite scary la... then the wind keep blowing... the the bushes beside me moves.... so.... hahahahah.. i run and pray in tongues.... good that i did that... cos i felt GOD RUNNING BESIDE ME.... then as i run under a bridge or in between 2 trees... i really felt the verse, Psalm23:4, Even though i walk(i run la) through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me!!! i really felt the presense of the Lord there!!! Its so amazing... Its like i din plan to meet God there.. I just wanted to relax go for a slow jog... but... God met me there... God went before me and "white-taped" the danger for me!!! and at those dark areas where he knows i am scare, He waited for me!!!

SO... lesson!!! i learnt that God is really taking all the opportunities to speak to us... its bout us... whether we are able to listen to his voice!! :)

The new thing!!

Hello Brothers and sisters....

This is your mysterious brother, Brother CGW along with Brother GLF, we have decide to come up with this blog. Do feel free to start coming to this blog.. feel free to post prayer requests, things bout your life, things bout you!! cos we want to know you better too!! so please... come here to read more bout the others too... and let say you did a fantastic devotional time!! do post it here for the rest to see and learn...!!! so... that is all for now... i will continue to upgrade this till!! but for now... this is it!!

Worship Transformers

Worship draws man to God, God to man, man to man. That leads to the transformation of our generation and beyond.

~by our cell leader~

~Christopher Isaiah Fun~